Tuesday 11 March 2008

Tuesday 11th March

Not the best day I've had. It started hearing some bad news about another girls baby which put me on the verge of tears for the rest of the day. Its amazing how much you can relate to someones situation even though it may be very different to your own. You develop a real empathy for people you don't even really know and the mums in the NICU,PICU,and SCBU are the best support there is. When someone asks you how you are, you know that they really 'get it'.

I went to the coffee morning which was good, but again, one emotional mum set about three of us off again. It was just one of those days!

Niamh was unstable throughout the night and she had some very scary moments when I was visiting her today. She had two bad bradys (dropping heart rate) and her tube had kinked which caused her oxygen to drop. She was turning blue which was very scary to see. Luckily two fantastic nurses were there to stabilise her and they gave her some suction. She has been like that all afternoon and has had more episodes. Ill phone again later after the doctors rounds to see what they say. Ive met a really lovely mum in the cot next door who was really sympathetic and held my hand.

This sucks! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.


Edited to add: Niamh has been stable for the last hour. The doctors came round and looked at her charts and dont seem too concerned. Her feeds are at 5ml/hour which will stay the same and she will come off the antibiotics in the morning.


4 comments:

Leoni said...

Massive hugs to you Bon {{{HUG}}} I so wish I could give them to you in real life :-(

Its ok to feel cr*ppy hun, part and parcel of this bl**dy long journey you are on. Ofcourse you are going to feel empathy for other mums when they have bad news, but this is balanced by the good news too. Niamh has been doing so well, so i guess today was her "dip" with tomorrow being her peak. Who would have thought 4 weeks back she would be 730grms and growing like a weed today.

I can imagine the uncertainty is killing you :-( but she WILL come home healthy Bon, I know she will. She's a little fighter our Niamh, a real warrior princess, she has the most amazing spirit for one so little and we have to keep believing in her. Remember she is in great hands, the nurses and Drs will take great care of her. I'll send an extra prayer up above tonight for Niamh and your family.

cheers,
Leoni
xxxxx

Siobhan Royle said...

Thankyou for making me cry again Leoni xxx Good tears though x

Carolyn said...

oh leoni said it so well...

just letting you know we are thinking of you and family...

Anonymous said...

sorry you and our poppet had a bad day today, but ditto everything leoni said, she will go through good days and bad days but she is a fighter and has come so far already. You will be bringing her home before you know it :)